Confessions of a Drama Queen

Warning: Super non-sense blog! Don’t read if YOU hate drama queen!

Reality Check.
Alright, here’s the deal.
I’m with a guy.
Insensitive; Not sweet; Not your average guy.
Ok… but I love him.
I still do. (promise!)
Maybe I’m not his average girl either.
So what?
He loves me. (I think, well… I know)
Actually I’m exaggerating.
He’s not “that” insensitive.
He’s “somewhat” sweet.
And definitely he’s not “just” any average guy.
I don’t know what’s happening to me.
I want him to be this and that.
Although… I like the way he is right now.
There are “some” things… well… a lot of things I want him to be.
For example: (patikim lang)
I want him to give me flowers out of nowhere. (yung tipong wala lang naisip lng kita! Baduy ika nga)
I want him to be extra sweet. (fine! Super sweet)
I want him to show some PDA. (well, sometimes. NO! all the time but not too mushy… yuck!)
I want to have romantic pictures with him. (pang friendster?!?!)
I want to cuddle all night long. (kelangan nyang umuwi! My bahay pa din naman sya, you know!)
I want him to be his number one priority. (ang self-fish! Sorry unica hija)
Well, well, well… to sum it all up, there’s this “thing” I want to have.
I want to feel the “kilig” moment again.
I want to feel special.
I want to have a relationship that’s fun and exciting.
I want to go out-of-town every single time (medyo magastos ata eto)
I don’t know what I’m saying!
I know there’s no such thing as “P.E.R.F.E.C.T” relationship.
Everyone has flaws.
Everything has flaws.
We can’t create a world that is so damn perfect.
In fact no one or nothing is perfect.
Who says they’re perfect?
Oh c’mon… shut up!
Tsk!
What I’m trying to say is that…
… I want him to be someone else, which is bad! (very bad me)
But on the other hand I want him to be himself…
So complicated this thing called “L.O.V.E”
I don’t know what I want.
I don’t know what I really want him to do.
Maybe it’s me.
I’m the one who’s thinking all of these non-sense issues.
I’m the one who’s causing the trouble. (hey! But not all the time)
Moving forward…
Which is better?
The heart or the brain?
The heart who’s always right in the first place? OR
The brain who’s cautiously deciding what is right from wrong?
Hmpf!
… reality sucks!
Hate it but at the same time enjoying it!

Hey honey! I love you! Don't get mad! ahihi :p